Right now, the comment learned from OD is the best way to comment on the day. Many, many changes at work - management, staff, organizational restructuring, "job fluidity", lean budgets and yet expanding requirements. I can accept all of those, and will take the jargon at face value (until otherwise dissuaded). Multiple meetings to "increase efficiencies", shame the faithless, or wave the "we are all one team" banner - sometimes all three in the same meeting. And management is promising improvement - good, better, best. And, surprisingly, this management set may actually pull it off. Don't ask me how - maybe it's just good-will during the honeymoon period, or the exhaustion of witnessing (and being subjected to) the management merry-go-round (come in merry, go round and change everything, then roll out). What evah.
So, what's the cause of the ennui? Again, I was confronted with the reality that advancement, leadership potential, mentoring in my organization is predicated on who you are related (politically, familially) to. A wonderful, capable person that I work with (who does have incredible leadership potential) was again - in a public forum - called out by an upper level manager and given assurances of being shepherded toward growth opportunities.
And, the problem with this picture? 1) Few others are given this same mentoring. 2) Wonderful Capable is related to top leadership in the organization (not common knowledge among the rank and file, but certainly known among upper level management), and hence is being given the key to the executive elevator. 3) My attitude.
I was hurt and angered at hearing the offer - and walked out of the room. And cried a bit, even though I vowed long ago that this job would not make me cry anymore. Oh well, a weak moment. I hope the best for Wonderful Capable, our organization certainly needs more like her/him. I hope the managers can elicit the growth and changes desired in the organization - we're feeling a little dizzy from the spin. My goals? Dust myself off, don't let this affect my relationship with Wonderful Capable (I really like her/him), and rethink my long term goals with this organization that doesn't value all of its talent. Meh. Meh.